Changing Winds

I know it has been forever since I updated the blog.  There are various reasons for this.  I will explain these best I can and then I will tell you why I have decided to write again.  As I have stated before, writing is my therapy.  There are a few other hobbies I have but nothing soothes my soul and battered emotions like writing.

Joseph was attending Villa Maria school for special children the past few years.  He would go on a Sunday evening or Monday morning and stay until Friday evening.  We had to deal with some behavioral issues and frustrations on the weekends but it was not to the point where I had much to write or vent about on the blog.  I also turned to exercise for a long time and would set out every morning to a boot camp or bike ride which I found to be very therapeutic. 

Another reason I let it go was because I had nothing new to say.  It was the same old thing.  I needed to find other ways to deal with the stress then venting them to the world on this little blog.  And then things started to unravel quickly with every thing else in our lives BUT Joseph.

I had three weddings of adult children, two grand babies born, two knees replaced, we lost our home, moved into a rent house and just a month ago into a new home, physical therapy, doctors appointments, numerous health issues,  and problems of various degrees with all the other children.  It was mind numbing.  So mind numbing I didn't even have the strength to write.  So, what has changed?

After suffering a lot of health issues over the past three years, I have come to accept my life as it is.  I temporarily opened an antique shop but after too much success decided to open it from my home to ease the stress and to be here for my family.  Also, Joseph did not return to Villa Maria this year.  He wanted to stay home and go to the public school.  After exploring our options and finding out more about the program we decided it was worth giving it a chance.  This meant he would be home all the time which on one hand is a good thing but on the other leaves us with no respite.  Ever.

The house we bought is ideal for him.  It is 2 blocks down from the rent house so he knows the neighborhood and there was little transition to deal with.  He also has his own room which gives him his own quiet space to retreat when thing begin to overwhelm him.  I gave him the smallest room so he feels snug and safe.  He loves it!

And so...why now?  Why even start writing again?  Things are better with Joseph.  At least I know what to expect every day.  I know things will always be crazy, hectic and stressful.  What changed was that Joseph discovered this blog.  He was issued an ipad at school to better do his work.  I am still not sure how he came to discover the blog but he did.  And he read it.  And he thought it was AWESOME!  He asked me when I picked him up at school if he was famous.  He said he was on the Internet and so were pictures of him.  He was THE camouflage angel!  I told him that a lot of people around the world love him and pray for him so yeah...he is famous.  He came home with a different disposition.  He was moved by our love.  Understood our struggle.  Appreciated us! 

My idea is to change my forum.  I have decided to talk to Joseph through this blog.  It will get personal.  I will be harsh at times but always loving.  Why didn't I think of this before?  He reads better than he listens.  I thought that through this type of forum it would keep my family and friends updated while at the same time talking to the famous angel himself. 

So here goes.  I will start tonight and we will just take a day at a time.  And by the way, I hope everyone is having a very blessed New Year!  I've missed you all and hope that you continue to offer us up in prayer.